2nd Timothy 2:12 KJV If we suffer (for Christ), we shall also reign with Him.

Baptism of Suffering
Books that Inspire or Give us pause.

Allen, AA - The Price of God's Miracle Working Power - www.schambach.org
Chapter 1 - "Jesus was NOT persecuted while He remained in the carpenter shop at Nazareth. 
But the moment He started to do mighty things, He was called the 'prince of devils' & there were many attempts to destroy His life
(See Luke 4:29).
"Peter was a 'good fellow' as long as he was a mere fisherman, but when he healed the lame man, they threw him in jail
(See Acts 3:7, 4:3)...You will NOT encounter much opposition or persecution as long as you are just a 'normal (nominal) Christian.' 
But when you accept God's promises for your life and begin to do the UNUSUAL, persecution will come."
Chapter 2 The Disciple IS Not Above His Master  
Fasting & "persistent habitual prayer...is the cause, miracles the result...
If the disciple could attain the same results as Jesus did without paying the same price, the disciples would be greater than his master... The student of Jesus Christ CANNOT become greater than his teacher. 
He cannot learn anything Jesus does not know. 
He cannot find a shortcut to (Holy/healing/miracle/deliverance) power with God."
Chapter 7 The Cross  "Charles G Finney left a promising law practice to enter the ministry, an untried field for which he had no special training. He took up His cross...However, just taking up the cross is not enough. 
It must be taken up DAILY...Christ never took a vacation...The cross went with Him even on vacation...
The cross was not an accident which befell Him at the end of life...
There was never a day that He would say, 'This day is My own. 
I will go about My Father's business again tomorrow.'"

Andrew, Brother - God's Smuggler - www.odusa.org

Concerning the Days Ahead By Yolanda Ballard

Billheimer, Paul E - Don't Waste Your Sorrows -
Chapter 8 The Great Business of Life - Learning Agape Love (continued)
section Explanation of the Mystery of Suffering -
"God is NOT interested in brokenness primarily for its temporal (refining/testing/purifying/sanctifying/maturing of character) value, great as that may be.  His Bride-elect is in training for the throne...
Suffering is God's grand strategy (apprenticeship) for creating rank in the Bridehood for His eternal enterprise...
There is NO sainthood without suffering...All born-again people are in training for rulership...
Deep dimensions of this (agape) love are learned only in the school of suffering, even after the new birth & filling with the Holy Spirit.""

Chariots of Fire - running for the Lord @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vxlX5wyEQs&feature=player_embedded

Cho, David Yonggi, Seol, Korea - Successful Home Cell Groups - www.bridgelogos.com 
Chapter 14  Preaching to a Growing Church shares that we should never suffer for personal sin, sickness, the devil, a curse, or poverty, but only for the sake of the gospel, because of persecution.  Christ removed/took care of man's problems at the cross.  Any suffering that does not bring any redeeming/spiritual (salvation/deliverance/ healing/etc) result, especially for others, causes nothing but affliction/trauma (reversible by God).
Cho, David Yonggi - The 4th Dimension  volume 1 - www.bridgelogos.com - publisher -
Chapter 4 Rhema shares that one's suffering can be "God-appointed" if it blesses others, especially into the kingdom of God. 
But if your suffering "starts to destroy you, then this is from Satan & you should pray through & rid yourself of it...
Always focus through the lens of the uppermost  goal, the redeeming of  souls.  If you see that your suffering brings abut more redemption than your healing, then do not ask for deliverance; but ask God to give you strength to persevere."
Cho, David Yonggi - The Holy Spirit My Senior Partner - www.charismahouse.com - publisher -
Chapter 5 Believers & the Holy Spirit (baptism) reminds us that Penticost made the difference between the disciples remembering + understanding Jesus' teachings and between remaining discouraged, bewildered & impotent to serve God.  "The Holy Spirit did not lead Jesus to be tempted so as to destroy Him.  This temptation of the devil was (allowed) only to discipline Him.  Likewise, the Holy Spirit is with us & teaches us, both when we sense the wonderful grace and truth of God & when we feel as if we have been deserted."  Remember, Christ "felt in His human flesh/mind/emotions" that God had abandoned Him on the cross. Human flesh is Not a discerner/perceiver of truth.  Our human spirit is tutored/mentored by the Holy Spirit daily as we permit/woo/worship/listen to Him. 
Our human spirit (the part of us that has eternal life when we ask Jesus to be our savior) receives what insights the Holy Spirit gives & transmits to our other human parts (flesh/mind/emotions). 
"The spiritual teaching of the Holy Spirit is in progress naturally, in every field of our human will, feelings & intelligence.  Through our will & emotions, the Holy Spirit brings us into the likeness of Christ"...
Let us never "belittle or neglect to live out the teachings of the Holy Spirit that we receive through real-life tests & experiences as well as through the Word."  God's Holy Spirit "school has neither holiday nor vacation." 

Clark, Randy - There Is More - www.globalawakening.com - Subtitle: Reclaiming the Power of Impartation
Chapter 11 Radical Obedience - Impartation for the Power to Die - Available for martyrdom

Davis, June Newman @ The Shaping of an Apostle: Davis, June Newman: Amazon.com: Books - Excerpts - Autobiography in part shares much of the physical maladies originating from drowning as a child.
+ Scripture Keys Power Manual - Kindle edition by Newman Davis, June. Religion & Spirituality Kindle eBooks @ Amazon.com. Healed of Pain testimony.

Davis, Paul Keith - Angels that Gather - www.whitedoveministries.org    
Chapter 3 The New Ministry Model  "God used (and continues to use) ordinary people who received (make themselves available to receive) an extraordinary mandate & Heaven's virtue to achieve its (Penticost's) fulfillment...
He (Jesus Messiah) shall receive the full measure of His reward for His sufferings." 
Revelation 6:10 TPNT  Are You not judging and exonerating our blood from those who live upon the earth?
Chapter 4 The Transition  "The Apocrypha tells us that Isaiah was 'sawn asunder with a wooden saw' because of that generation's hardness of heart & absence of revelatory insight"... Sometimes the Lord permits/encourages bullies/evil/demons to torment us, thus allowing us in the natural to gain spiritual insight/muscle necessary to war against demonic principalities later on in life, experiences without which in spiritual warfare we would be useless/annihilated/ taken advantage of/kidnapped/continually defeated.

Duplantis, Jesse @ https://www.divinerevelations.info/searchable_directory2/czech/
heaven_close_encounters_of_the_god_kind_jesse%20duplantis.pdf (edited excerpt)   
Paul "said, "Our affliction is but for a moment. People have made it a lifetime. Change it back to a moment."
I get goose bumps when I think about that. It's a moment, not a lifetime.
"Change it back to a moment," Paul told me. I have used Paul's statement in seminars & people compliment me for the message, but that word didn't come from me. It came from Paul. Look at how Paul said it in 2 Corinthians 4:17,18: For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding & eternal weight of glory. While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen:
for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.
Paul continued to speak to me, "Change it back to a moment, Jesse." Then he whispered, "Change it back to a moment.  Don't leave it a lifetime. I've kept the faith, & that's how it's done. & it worked."

Early, Dave - The 21 Most Effective Prayers of the Bible - www.barbourbooks.com publisher - Chapter 19  Increase Our Faith - The Prayer of the Disciples - Luke 17:5  reminds us that not only was Jesus martyred, but also His disciples.  James, John's brother, was executed; Matthew was killed by the sword; John was boiled in boiling oil; Peter & Andrew were crucified on a X-shaped cross; James the Just was thrown down 100 feet & then clubbed to death; Matthias + James the Greater (with his new convert, a Roman officer) were beheaded.
Bartholomew (Nathaniel) was martyred by whipping; Thomas was stabbed with a spear.

Ferrell, Ana - Seated in Heavenly Places - www.voiceofthelight.com - There is a "relationship that exists between being a participant in the sufferings of Christ & producing the light & the authority that dispels the darkness"
(of evil & deceit).
Chapter 2 The Throne of God section I Came to Judgment before the Great Judge of the Universe -
There is a place of loneliness in Ministry training by the Holy Spirit, where one will be unable to see or hear God for a season, where the holy fire of God will allow refining/purification, including demonic attacks, such as came upon Job in the Old Testament.
[This reminds us of the time when Jesus on the cross cried out that He had been forsaken by His Father God; but that was His sense of loneliness, that of his feeling being abandoned.  Nonetheless, God had NOT abandoned Jesus, even though His 5 senses & His human spirit told him otherwise.]
Ferrell, L Emerson - Immersed in Him - www.voiceofthelight.com -
"Persecution from those who refuse repentance is the fire used to baptize us & destroy them."

Grable, Steve - 3/2009 http://jeremiah111.org/words/The%20Saints%20will%20Rise%20to%20the%20Top%20Like%20Cream.htm - "The Lord...spoke to me saying, 'This is the Status Quo, this is a time that my people will struggle & suffer & learn. But when the end times, the hard times come, My people will rise to the top like cream.'”  "We are about to set voyage upon an adventure of a life-time. Many men of the Bible have desired to stand in time where we stand here & now & have longed to see the events of our day come to pass. We are a most privileged and chosen generation.  You & I are about to become witnesses of marvelous things, things too impossible to imagine, events that have been designed by our God before the foundation of the world. We are at that designated place in history & have been called & anointed to bring the Good News of Jesus to a dying world that will affect the decisions of the multitudes. For all eternity, every resident of Heaven will remember these final days as the great Victory of the Saints through the power of our God & our Lord Jesus.  We are on that very edge of His Glory.
Every Believer who is focused upon the Lord will be used mightily." - http://jeremiah111.org/

http://www.pdxprays.com/uploads/3/9/1/6/39160377/prayer_walking_handbook_-_henry_gruver.pdf   edited
Gruver, Henry - [CARRYING OTHERS’ SUFFERING IN OUR BODY] - In an area of Siberia where many saints had been martyred, I could hardly sleep for 9 days and nights, until I found myself at the point of exhaustion.
I would fall asleep for about an hour and a half, then stir out of that sleep, hearing those cries.  I would get up and walk the floor, reading Isaiah 53, clinging to it & embracing it. I would cry out to the Lord, “You haven’t given me any understanding of what I am experiencing.” I had no idea what it was all about until the end of the 9th day. 
As I was walking that city my bronchial tubes froze. It was April; the sun was shining and I didn’t cover my face. What I didn’t realize was that it was 20 degrees below zero. I didn’t know what had happened to me. I just knew that the fever & the pain of every breath I took, combined with the inability to sleep more than an hour or so, was like torture. I kept walking because I kept hearing the cries of innocent blood, particularly on 1 hill above the city.
I kept remitting the sins of the innocent blood, but the Lord wouldn’t tell me what had happened on that hill.  The last day I was there, I asked a local man if he knew the history of the area, & of that hill in particular. 
He was a man of position & honor & spoke English very well. 
“Oh,” he explained, “that is called The Red Hill.”  69 It was covered with snow at the time, so I inquired, “Why is it called The Red Hill?”  “Well,” he started to say, as he hesitated for a moment, “it doesn’t make me happy to tell you this; but people like you, we took them up on that hill & lined them up & machine-gunned them down. 
We had to; we were order to do it.  If we would not have obeyed those orders, we would have been shot also.
We then used a bulldozer to cover their fallen bodies. That whole hill is full of bodies of people like you.”  
[He meant Christians.]  That certainly explained why the cries persisted in my spirit. 
It was truly the cries of innocents (martyrs) who had given their lives…
I hadn’t realized the power of that innocent blood in that hill.
Again that night I got my hour & a half of sleep before I awakened again to the cries of pain in my body.
Once more I walked the floor.  Jesus, I don’t understand,” I told Him…
He spoke these words to me very gently & sweetly. “You are in a heated room.
You can crawl into a comfortable bed for that hour & a half of rest.
You can fellowship with the saints in this city without fear. Can I not count you worthy to enter into the fellowship of the sufferings of those who would not accept deliverance? (Hebrews 11:35)
Can I not account you worthy to experience some of what they went through, “not accepting deliverance that they might obtain a better resurrection?” 
Hearing those words, I fell on my face & broke into weeping. 
“Oh, Jesus,” I sobbed, “don’t ever take this off from me.
I’m (now) willing to carry this affliction the rest of my life, until I go to the grave.  
Don’t take if off me, if it will bring glory to Your name.” I sincerely meant every word…
(But subsequently Pastor Dick) stated…“The Lord has been talking to me about you while you were preaching tonight… He told me that you have been carrying this affliction in your body, & that a couple of nights ago you told him you would be willing to carry it the rest of your life. He told me to tell you that He has accounted to you as though you had carried it the rest of your life. You have the reward, but He is going to take it off from you, because He wants your strength to remain for many days.” (This spiritual twist/insight on the Bride of Christ suffering with Christ on the cross (martyrdom) aligns to some degree with Catholic theology.  Invite Holy Spirit to enlighten/align us with scripture/Father's perspective.) philippians/3-10.htm - 10I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to Him in His death.  11so that I may somehow attain to the resurrection from the dead. 12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been perfected, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.

Guyon, Jeanne - A Short and Easy Method of Prayer -
http://www.passtheword.org/dialogs-from-the-past/methodofprayer.htm
Chapter 7 On Suffering is recommended reading for those suffering persecution & rejection
Chapter 3  THE METHOD OF PRAYER FOR THOSE WHO CANNOT READ -
Those suffering from disability & infirmity
Chapter 23 AN EXHORTATION TO MINISTERS
"2. O how inexpressibly great is the loss sustained by mankind from the neglect of the interior life. 
What an account will those have to render who are entrusted with the care of souls & have not discovered & communicated to their flock this hidden treasure.
3. Some excuse themselves by saying, that there is danger in this way, or that simple persons are incapable of comprehending the things of the Spirit. But the oracles of truth affirm the contrary: "The Lord loveth those who walk simply." (Prov. xii. 22, vulg.) But what danger can there be in walking in the only true way, which is Jesus Christ, giving ourselves up to Him, fixing our eye continually on Him, placing all our confidence in his grace, & tending with all the strength of our soul to his purest love?4. The simple ones, so far from being incapable of this perfection, are, by their docility, innocence, & humility, peculiarly qualified for its attainment; &, as they are not accustomed to reasoning, they are less tenacious of their own opinions. Even from their want of learning, they submit more freely to the teachings of the divine Spirit; whereas others, who are cramped & blinded by self-sufficiency, offer much greater resistance to the operations of grace."
http://www.neve-family.com/books/guyon/03.html 
other publications at http://www.passtheword.org/DIALOGS-FROM-THE-PAST/index.html  including:
CONCISE VIEW OF THE WAY TO GOD; & OF THE STATE OF UNION 
http://www.passtheword.org/DIALOGS-FROM-THE-PAST/waytogod.htm
Spiritual Torrents http://www.passtheword.org/DIALOGS-FROM-THE-PAST/spiritualtorrents.htm
Also see Guyon at http://www.ccel.org/index/author-G.html with following links
Autobiography of Madame Guyon or http://www.ccel.org/ccel/guyon/auto.toc.html
Complete Poetical Works (Author of section) + Short and Easy Method of Prayer + Song of Songs of Solomon +
Explanations and Reflections having Reference to the Interior Life + Spiritual Progress +
Translations from the French of Madame de la Mothe Guion

Hagin, Kenneth E @ https://idoc.pub/documents/kenneth-e-hagin-i-believe-in-visionspdf-34wm2jj3qwl7
or  I Believe in Visions Kenneth E Hagin – Ekklesia - edited section: Seeing Jesus' Wounds - Then the Lord said to me, "Stretch forth thine hand." He held His own hands out before Him. I looked into them. For some reason I expected to see a scar in each hand where the nails had pierced His flesh. I should have known better, but many times we get ideas that are not really scriptural, yet they are accepted beliefs. Instead of scars I saw in the palms of His hands the wounds of the crucifixion: 3-cornered, jagged holes.  Each hole was large enough for me to have put my finger in it.  I could see light on the other side of the hole.  After the vision, I got out my Bible & turned to the 20^th chapter in John's Gospel to read about the time (pg.53) Christ appeared to His disciples following His resurrection.  When He 1st appeared to them, Thomas was not with them. They told Thomas they had seen the Lord, but Thomas was unbelieving & said, "Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, put my finger into the print of the nails & thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe" (John 20:25).  8 days later while the disciples, including Thomas, were together in a room, Jesus appeared again in their midst. He turned to Thomas & said, "Reach hither thy finger, behold My hands; reach hither thy hand, thrust it into my side & be not faithless, but believing." Then Thomas, knowing it was Jesus, exclaimed, "My Lord & God" (John 20:27,28). 
I had deeper insight then into what Thomas had seen.

Higginbotham , David - summer 2013 - In the Valley of Jabbok: Day 1
@ http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiGU5qR6boKUr7H85dl5aQQ -
"Sacrifice is one of the most important concepts you can learn in the church. It doesn't lie.
It communicates your seriousness to God...In the 1st of 21 videos, Pastor David & his wife,
Evelyn, speak about what the Israel Challenge in the Valley of Jabbok mean."
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 2 - In the Valley of Jabbok: Day 3 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 4 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 5 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 6 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 7 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 8 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 9 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 10 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 11 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 12 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 13 -
In the Valley of Jabbock - Day 14 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 15 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 16 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 17 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day18 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 19 -
In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 20 - In the Valley of Jabbok - Day 21

Hinn, Benny  calls those who are willing to allow God to commission them to martyrdom. 
Not that God will, but that they are willing to be willing.  (Also note above; 2009 TV program Intimacy
Benny references  Jeanne Guyon.) - audio CD - High Call + Personal Cost - www.bennyhinn.com 

Holtz, Scott and Dalit - http://earlymorningmanna.com/blasts/11qYesJu3R/11Mar24.html - 3/24/2011 -
The Pleasure Access - "That night that our Messiah was shedding the 1st divine drops of blood upon the soil of the local olive press of Jerusalem (known as Gethsemane), He uttered out the most defining words of all human problems known to all of us, 'Abba, if Thou art willing, remove this cup from Me.' He did not want to drink the cup that was before Him, nor did He want to obey God's predetermined plan that all the universe hinged upon His absolute obedience.  This is also the same with everyone of us who walk this decaying planet & evil world system. 
There comes a time that we also do not want to do His will & are utterly overcome with disobedience to the very core of our beings. 
Yet, we must choose & cannot remain neutral at this moment of testing no matter how much we all want to avoid this inescapable process.  God in His divine purpose & pre-election has determined for us to be confronted with that which we secretly hate & this test is the key to any further spiritual advancement, maturity, & rewards from Heaven.  It is in this zone of divine darkness & thick veil of mystery that the man or woman of God is defined to be that vessel of refined gold or rejected brass.

Once the decision has been made to respond with total surrender of 'Yet, not my will, but Thy will be done,' not as just a coined religious statement, but that of a total surrender to the Divine Smelter's process, then begins the access to the pleasure zone that is beyond anything life on planet Earth has to offer. 
May you this morning be 1 of those who have taken this cup & have no desire to look back...
We are praying that you will have the strength to respond to His callings of deep speaking unto deep in this hour.  Lose yourself & find God."

Holtz, Scott & Dalit -12/6/2012 Champions or Heroes #3 http://earlymorningmanna.com/blasts/11qYesJu3R/11Dec06.html "Our greatest honor this side of glory is to carry His reproach.  It is part of glorious honorable service to be persecuted, censured, blamed, criticized, reproach, scolded, rebuked, treated as the scum of the earth, the dregs of all things... reproached. 
This is our hidden altar of Hebrews 13...Let us go out to Him outside the camp, bearing His reproach."
(Hebrews 13:10-13 New American Standard Bible)...
There is a remnant of warrior lovers who are positioned to not only sound the shofar of warning in these last days, but also have been equipped by Abba to bear & carry His reproaches.  This is our greatest reward this side of glory...It takes great courage to speak out & evangelize in this sector & one must be prepared with great stamina against the reproaches &atroubles that are directed towards those who preach Jesus the Messiah & Risen from the dead."  Many "want the acceptance of man more than the acceptance of Heaven."
(However this can be due to many reasons including; spiritual immaturity, not God's timing, missing Holy Spirit baptism, lack of proper spiritual oversight/accountability.)
Holtz, Scott & Dalit - Nuclear Option of estate planning for terrorism & martyrdom
@ http://flashfloodsmedia.com/video/gallery/index.php?m=video&v=126

Hunter, Joan - Power to Heal - www.joanhunter.org - Chapter 8 Can I Truly Forgive? -
"I asked God one day, 'Why are You saving all of my tears?'  He (seemed to reply) through the Holy Spirit, 'I am saving them for restoration. I am keeping count.  For every tear sown in sorrow, you will reap as much tears of joy.'"

Joly, Reona Peterson - Tomorrow You Die - www.ywampublishing.com -
Chapter 11 Fear None of Those Things Which Thou Shalt Suffer - "Could it be that, through laying down my life, a man the likes of Saul of Tarsus (who became the apostle Paul) would come to know & serve Christ? 
Then my death would surely not be in vain."
Chapter 12 Father, Glorify Your Name - "God was asking us whether we trusted Him enough to leave the situation in His hands.  Were we really concerned with His glory?  Could we truly say, 'Father, glorify Your Name.
You know whether You can best do this by our death, by our imprisonment, or by our release. 
We leave that decision with You'?  The payer of relinquishment was what God was longing to hear from our lips.  His grace was made available. 
We each prayed out loud, using the other as a witness & we relinquished our lives to Him...
When death to self has taken place, public humiliation is not difficult to bear. 
Identification with the Savior, Who in His humiliation was denied even justice, was a very real privilege."

Kushner, Rabbi Harold - 1 Guest: Kushner with Emily Rooney 6/11/2011 excellent - Insurance does not insure against fire or dying.  Consider God's taste rather than His judgment.  Don't confuse God with Santa.

Brian Lake  Needmore, Pennsylvania, USA - Book: Romancing the King  www.brianlake.org 3/9-13/2009 radio broadcast #1634 - http://www.sidroth.org/ - http://www.sidroth.org/site/News2?abbr=rad_&page=NewsArticle&id=7959&security=1042&news_iv_ctrl=1121 -
Chapter 5 True Worship Touches His Heart   
When "we (the broken vessel) are experiencing the breaking process" we "have pain"...
The pain is part of the process... The goal is the fragrance...that fills the air & the nostrils of God."

Lam, Nora  with daughter Ruth Lam - China Cry - www.chinaministries.org - Now deceased Norma Lam gives her testimony of the (1955-56) labor camp terrors (of Mao Tse-Tung) & subsequent liberty (physical & spiritual).

Miller, Calvin  Loving God Up Close - Rekindling Your Relationship with the Holy Spirit -
Richard Wumbrand is quoted as saying, "The life, the self-sacrifice, the blood...forms what the renowned missionary in Africa, Albert Schweitzer, called 'the sacred fellowship of Those who have the mark of pain,' The fellowship to which Jesus, the Man of sorrows, belonged. 
The underground church is united by a bond of love toward its Savior...
Nobody in the (earthly) world can defeat them." 
"Always the hour of suffering causes us to rely most on the inward presence of Christ. 
The presence of suffering, duress or pain also causes us to treasure our sense of union with Christ."

Mjorud, Pastor A  Herbert - Fighting Cancer with Christ - Mjorud Evangelistic Association, 3604 Coolidge St. NE, Minneapolis, Minnesota, USA 55418, Phone 1-612-789-7803 -
Chapter 8 Why Do the Righteous Suffer? 
"There are many in the healing ministry who insist that Paul did not have a physical sickness, that he was referring to his persecutions & trials of faith. 
However, in the Book of Galatians he specifically said that it was because of 'a bodily ailment' that he stayed with them to preach the Gospel & reminded these people that they would have gladly plucked out their eyes & given them to him, if it were possible. 
When speaking of the 'thorn in the flesh,' he called it an infirmity & so did the Lord...This is the very same word in the Greek language that is used in Matthew 8:17, where Isaiah 53:4 is quoted, 'He took our infirmities (sicknesses) & bore our diseases,' to say that Jesus fulfilled this when He healed all the sick in Peter's house." 
Sin is dealt with in the next verse.  Isaiah 53:5 (KJVer) He was wounded (physically) for our transgressions. 
He was bruised (pierced) for our iniquities (rebellion/sin). 
The chastisement of our peace was upon Him & with (by) His stripes (wounds/ whipping)) we ARE healed (physically). 
Benny Hinn explains that the front of the cross/Jesus is for the eradication of sin, while the back of the cross/Jesus is for the eradication of disease/ infirmity.
(Kat Kerr www.revealingheaven.com says Paul's thorn was blindness, which he contended
with & overcame in large part, evidenced by writing letters in his own hand.)

Osborn, Tommy Lee (TL) - Frontier Evangelism www.osborn.org Many quote Psalm 34:19 KJV -
"Many are the afflictions of the righteous.  This does NOT mean sicknesses as some would have us believe. 
It means trials, hardships, persecutions, temptations, etc., but never (disease, meaning) sicknesses or physical disabilities (due to inheritance or injury."   
In scripture the question is, "Who has done this?  Who has sown these weeds?  Who or what has caused this disaster?  Who can we blame for this disease/problem?"  The answer was/is, "The enemy (Satan) has done this." Not God.  God may have given Satan permission, as He did regarding Job.  In Job's instance, each tragedy was a spiritual test.  Abram had a spiritual test when asked to kill his son & heir Isaac.  Jesus had a spiritual test in the dessert.  These tests were temporary, not lifelong; perhaps because they passed the test. 
Those who wandered 40 years in the desert, never did pass the tests, never did learn.

Roberts, Frances J - Come Away My Beloved - Chapter Lovest Thou Me? Section The Divine Commission - Sometimes it is wise to "not chafe at the bit...My direction...is not the common way...
I would bring thee into a (holy/safe/challenging) place in Me & a ministry...
The gathering darkness...hour...none shall be able freely to do My work...Find the place (destiny/assignment)  I have for thee.  I have deliberately put (allowed) thorns in thy nest...
The enemy (to your/My destiny) shall hinder thee in every way imaginable, if ye give him any room to stand.  Rebuke every detaining circumstance, in My name, & keep thyself covered by the blood. 
Your heart will grow cold unless ye keep it close to Mine."  Keep one's focus on Him & NOT on the problem.)
Chapter Lovest Thou Me? Section Sacrifice My Status Symbol -
"Look for the blood-stained prints of My feet" (& follow them).
Chapter & Section Learn to Reign - "Come into that place where ye share My authority & thus I will be able to manifest forth My glory through you.  This is My greatest joy, to lift man out of enemy territory & seat him in the heavenlies with Me.  And where am I? 
Even at the right hand of the Father...& ye are seated with Me, far above all principalities & powers.  Through Me ye have inherited all. 
Ye can lay claim to that inheritance NOW because I have already died. 
Because I have already died, ye can enter in NOW. 
You do NOT gain an inheritance when you die (& go to heaven), but when (Christ Jesus, Messiah) the testator dies.  Take it, My people.  It is yours NOW.  It is yours because of Calvary...
Think of My love...the tie-in between Calvary & this sharing of My throne life (right NOW on earth). 
I want you with Me.  I want you seated beside Me, because I want you near Me, because I love you...
(We have been deputized to function on earth on His behalf, not impotently, but with audacity, in Jesus' name)
I have vested you with authority, also...Recognize your privilege to do so...Move out in the power of the Spirit into that realm where I would have you to live and move & yes...live in Me continually, & not  that ye be moving in and out of this place.  I would have you live continually in the center of the Kingdom of God, just as I have place the Kingdom within the very center of your being (when God's Holy Spirit impregnates your human spirit when you are born again; water & Holy Spirit baptism further empowers one's spirit man). 
You bring this Kingdom into operation in you own life by an act of faith...
There are works which I must yet do through My body, the Church, which I could not possibly have accomplished through My own physical body in My earthly ministry...
There are sufferings yet to be accomplished in the body of the Church that I was not able to suffer on the cross... Yea, & Praise Me when the most difficult thing to do is Praise. 
This is the victory that over-cometh the world...
Faith rejoicing for victories claimed in advance...the very fabric of things hoped for...the raw material in My hands... I am happiest there, &...ye shall make the enemy most unhappy...
This (praise) is the most powerful weapon ye can use against him (Satan). 
Praise is like a 2-edged sword, the 1 side bringing health to your own spirit & the other side cutting down the enemy."
Sounding of the Trumpet Section Heart Purity - "My forgiveness is in constant operation & ye need only accept it...
Renounce thy sin (when you become aware of it & apologize for it; also forgive self.  1 apology is sufficient. 
Continually 'feeling' of condemnation for a confessed sin is from one's enemy & NOT from Holy Spirit)... 
Unrest & conflict that ye suffer is not caused by My attitude toward thee, but by thine attitude toward thyself... (or by thine adversary).
(3rd) If ye were bearing no fruit, ye would not be thus molested (by lying thoughts from the demonic kingdom in opposition to the Kingdom of God)...No true saint who seeketh to please Me escapes the onslaughts of the devil...Ye need the armor if ye decide to go out to battle.  For in serving Me, ye anger the enemy & he will not allow thee to gain ground spiritually without seeking to hurl against thee his poisoned arrows of doubts & accusations.  Resist him, as scripture admonishes thee. 
He is not courageous, but he is sly, & he is not easily discouraged. 
Ye can never escape his snare until ye recognize his activities & strike at the source...Resist...
Do not doubt My forgiveness, but close thine ears to the accuser."

Tenny, Tommy - The God Chasers - www.godchasers.net -
Chapter 9 Dismantle Your Glory - The burial of man's glory is the birth of God's glory. admonishes us that, "You may be only a few spiritual inches away from the encounter of a lifetime...
Sometimes...your most treasured things may have to be broken to release the fragrance God remembers."

Tozier, A.W. - The Pursuit of God -  This is a book for those who are sold out for Jesus & willing to be martyrs.

Treece, Patricia - A Man for Others - Maximilian Kolbe - Saint of Auschwitz - in the Words of Those who Knew Him - Harper & Row Publishers - Klobe (1894-1941) Polish Franciscan priest volunteered to die in place of another.

Turner, Kevin - Another cutting edge ministry is that of Kevin Turner - www.stragicworldimpact.com
who requires His disciples to be willing to die out of love for the enemies of Christ.

Tyndale, William - http://www.scribd.com/doc/2278173/William-Tyndale-Martyr-and-Bible-Translator

Uwizera, Christine M - The Blazing Holy Fire - http://www.healingstream.net
Also - 1/15/2007 Messianic Vision radio broadcast with Christine Uwizera a survivor of the Rwandan holocaust.
Book's chapter 15 Fire of Testing and Persecution discusses mostly psychiatric/emotional/soul torments (due to being a disciple of Christ), although author herself did go through a harrowing time of family devastation during the Rwandan holocaust. 
Basically, one who is on fire for Christ, needs to expect that the kingdom of Satan is threatened. 
Satin will counterattack, using any method on any weakness/vulnerability we have. 
One needs to silently stick to Christ, even if the end result is martyrdom. 
Excellent chapter for those beginning a ministry.

van Thuan, (Francis Xavier) Nguyen - http://www.duonghyvong.com/biography.html -
Vietnam Catholic cardinal & prisoner of war -
van Thuan, Nguyen - video http://saltandlighttv.org/roadofhope/ - music - http://www.duonghyvong.com/music/index.html

Walker, Dennis - www.dunammisarc.org - Catching the Initiatives of Heaven -
Chapter 5 Hindrances to Spiritual Senses - section Pride & Presumption - "Many people preach AT God...
But Jesus...just followed His Father's directions from heaven & miracles occurred." -
section Resist Presumption -
It's all about relationship...Jesus...didn't run ahead or lag behind what the Father was doing...
(With a prideful heart) we lose the opportunity for God to be glorified on earth...
A heart of pride cannot bear fruit.  It is dead...does not understand broken humility & isn't open to hearing God...runs from the breaking & dealing of the Lord...God will allow you to fall on your face, in order to break the pride...The way to embrace a breaking is to ask God what to do to compete the work."

Watchman Nee To-sheng - A Table In The Wilderness - book - (Daily Meditations from the Ministry of Watchman Nee, a Chinese minister imprisoned for his beliefs and testimony) - Exodus 32:29 - Consecrate yourselves today to the Lord...that He may bestow upon you a blessing.  Based on this scripture, Nee teaches a personal consecration of ourselves to God, over & above our consecration to Him at the time we accept what Jesus did for us on the cross.  Nee teaches a consecration that excludes any work we may do for the Lord.  It is a personal relationship, like that of a wedding, compared to an earlier bridal engagement, as at salvation.  Engagements often have 1 ring for the finger of the bride-to-be.  At weddings there is often a second ring for the bride.  Nee teaches a consecration to the "will of God."  During many marriage vows we say that we will marry our mate for better or worse, in sickness until death.  It is a life commitment.
f you make such a consecration, mark the date in your Bible; then renew that commitment each year.

Maria Woodworth Etter - http://www.amazon.com/Signs-Wonders-Maria-Woodworth-Etter/dp/0883682990#reader_0883682990 Read chapter 1 online. -
Chapter 30 Signs and Wonders in Dallas, Texas - "We must have trials to perfect us for our future home."

Wurmbrand, Richard (Deceased) - Tortured for Christ - www.persuction.com -
I would like to request a complimentary copy of Tortured for Christ for my friend(s).
autobiography - https://etools.ncol.com/a/tfc/bg_vomtfc_wdbm-tfc-flash_346.html -
free book @ www.vom-usa.org https://etools.ncol.com/a/tfc/bg_vomtfc_biblegateway-tfc-cell-160x600_309.html (CAUTION: Only contribute $ to/through son Michael below*.)
Romanian secret police share that communists issued an order to kill entire family.
http://michaelwurmbrand.com/killing-wurmbrands.htm
Wurmbrand, Michael (*Richard's son) P.O. Box 5161, Torrance, CA  90510, USA - http://michaelwurmbrand.com or http://helpforrefugees.com -

Editorials/Interviews/Newsletters/Periodicals/Transcripts

Alger, Wanda @ Rise Up, David, and Speak to that Giant! by Wanda Alger - Yes, you can, in God's time.

Baczko, Marie @ Breaking Out Into Destiny in 2016! by Faith Marie Baczko - 3/25/2016 - "The (difficult) NARROW PLACE is the BIRTHING CHANNEL that is now moving His people forward out into broad & spacious places of freedom & victory."

Heidi Baker: "You Are Lord Over All Storms" (elijahlist.com) - 5/2/2022
Here's Why Not to Give Up by Heidi Baker - 2014 from Birthing the Miraculous - "I might have given up when people shot at me or when gangs were chasing me. I might have given up when we were in deep psychological distress after friends of ours in the Congo were dismembered with machetes in a church. I might have given up when I was reported in the newspapers as a drug dealer because of mistaken results at a lab, where they were testing some vitamins that were donated to us. I might have given up on the 5th, 6th or 7th occasion when crowds began to stone me for preaching about Jesus. Most especially, I might have given up when my husband, Rolland, got cerebral malaria & suffered a series of micro-strokes that almost killed him. Though he was eventually healed, for 2 years he lost his short-term memory & was totally unable to function in ministry or administration. 
The only reason I did not give up any of these times was because I know the One who placed His promises within me. When you know Him intimately, you never give up, because He is worthy.
You have to wait a long time for some promises.
I was 16 when the Lord told me I had a destiny in Africa, Asia & England.
It took me over 20 years before I reached Mozambique & began to step into that piece of my calling. Truthfully, I am being overshadowed more now than I have ever been before.
At times it is still very uncomfortable. There are days when I feel terribly stretched as God's promises grow within me, but even those days are a joy because I long to birth what God has given me.  Continue to carry your promises faithfully. Nurture them as they grow.
It does not matter how old you are. It is never too late.
The Lord wants to take you beyond who you are & what you can do.
God is the One who can take a barren woman in her old age & make her fruitful for the 1st time, just as the angel told Mary:
"Even Elizabeth your relative is going to have a child in her old age, & she who was said to be unable to conceive is in her 6th month.  For no word from God will ever fail" (Luke 1:36-37, NIV). 2 things will come from being over-shadowed. The 1st is a particular promise from God that is naturally impossible to fulfill. The 2nd is a general promise from God that nothing is impossible with Him...If we are wise, we will make the choice to say yes to God many times a day. We say yes to taking the time to worship, to having a positive attitude, to releasing people, to stopping for people when we might be in a hurry, to trusting God for a seemingly impossible financial situation.
Our yes is a daily choice. There is a daily sacrifice & a daily joy as we participate in God's dreams for this world.
As we do this, we participate with Jesus in the sacrifices He too made for the joy that was set before Him.
What an awesome privilege!" www.irisglobal.org
Baker, Rolland - 6/25/2010 - http://www.pwfwc.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=107:iris-ministries-heidi-a-rolland-baker&catid=40:articles&Itemid=104 - "We rejoice that we participate in His sufferings, so that we may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed. To the end of this age we will endure evil opposition & glorify God by overcoming with faith proven to be genuine. In all our troubles, our joy knows no bounds. As aliens & strangers in this world, we look forward to our perfect inheritance, kept in heaven for us.  In heaven Jesus will be exalted for His obedient suffering, & in the same way we will share in His reward. We conquer by taking the low road. We gain life by losing it, for His sake. We humble ourselves under the mighty hand of God that He may exalt us at the proper time. We learn to love by laying down our lives for others, & in so doing, minister to God Himself."

Ballard, Yolanda - Let Their Cries be Heard by Yolanda Ballard 1/6/2014 (Prophetic words) - "The flesh must die so that the spirit may live. Join hands with Me around the world so that I may have reverence bestowed upon the hundreds of millions of martyrs who die for Me every day, not just a physical death, but financial, emotional, every way possible. They live so that I may have the opportunity to enter those places many dare to enter for these are even the places that angels dare to tread. These are the places where many face lions in My name. These are the places where deep dark secrets are told where many share in the sufferings of Christ, for in these dark dungeons many experience the stories that the early church lived, where John the Baptist was beheaded, where Stephen was stoned, where Jesus carried the Cross, where lions ate them as their meal, where many were burned for their faith. Listen to their cries in the dark of night as they cry out to Me, their Heavenly Father, for I listen to their cries & their pain as they take the blows against My forehead once again & again. For they are My beloved faithful ones who loved not their lives unto death. They held on to their faith no matter what the cost & were the seeds planted in the earth that a bumper crop harvest could grow up from. Listen to the cries of their hearts as they take the sufferings so that you may be free to spread My word around the world. They are those who give you the strength that you may stand strong. They are those who take the pain so that you don't have to. They are those who are the mighty warriors of Christ, the brave & courageous ones who have a double portion of My anointing who stand up to the lions in My name & would not back down. These are the ones who receive double honor before My throne.
They are the soldiers of Christ that carry a banner of My love into battle who fight for the souls of men that I gave My life for. All hail the power of Jesus name. Let all kings prostrate fall. For they are kings & priests around My throne. They paid the price that you could never pay. They paid the ultimate sacrifice….their life for the salvation of multitudes for truly they were the seed planted in the ground so that a mighty oak tree could spring forth from. Unless a seed dies no life can come forth. Let their voices be heard. Let their cries be upon your heart.
Let not their life be in vain without it accomplishing what it was sent out to do.  One life for the lives of many.
They walked in My footsteps along the same path.
As they suffered they cried, 'Forgive them for they know not what they do." They had the same spirit as I have.
I was the seed planted so that multitudes could rise up to carry My same cross…1 life for the life of many.
Give them double honor for they gave their lives for their brother, the price of unconditional surrender, unconditional love."

Rachel Baxter - http://z3news.com/w/anevent-occur-world-war-3-no-stopping/ Prophetic Word -
"My word says that you shall have tribulation and you shall be persecuted. Yes, this is truth.  Look around you & you see it, & this shall be more and more. Even here in the land of 'the free'. I tell you that you will face great trouble for My sake and many will perish.  But those that lose their life for My sake will gain it...Seek forgiveness & give forgiveness. This is the only way to truly live. I plead with you.  Can you not accept that I died for you? What more must I say or do so that you shall know the truth & see that you are free? I cry out to the Father on your behalf. Come, sit at My feet that I may comfort you My brothers and sisters. Give me your hand & I will lead you beside still waters. There is nothing I withhold from My family.  The beautiful thing about light is that it cuts through the darkness & even overtakes it. Hope. There is great hope.  I am pouring out My Spirit in these last days in mighty measure.  No life has yet experienced the fullness of My Spirit, but you shall.
Yes, the oil is ready. The Angels stand ready to pour out the great anointing that I have saved up for such a time as this. Prepare yourself to receive the anointing I have for you. Of yourself, you can do nothing. But in Me there is nothing you can not do. Preparation means to humble yourself through fasting & prayer. Then, wait upon Me & I will wash you clean in My blood. The Angels will anoint your head with oil & you shall go forth to conquer.
Oh, how glorious it will be.  We will co-labor together on this earth in these last days turning the hearts of the sons to their fathers & the fathers to their sons. 
When a child knows their Father, & knows their place in the family, they are no longer an orphan, & this is what we shall do together. We shall set things right. Child after child shall be set free until the last day. 
It is not time to look up for 'your' redemption.
It is time to look around to your brothers & sisters on this earth & love them.
It is the question of THEIR salvation that must be on your lips & in your heart. It is time to be the light.
I am not coming to take you away yet because instead I desire to live through you in these last days. 
Together we will bring in the greatest harvest of souls this world has ever known...
Many of you will get to experience for yourselves the fullness of who I am, & who you are in Me.
As you come out of this world, you step into My kingdom.
Understand this, My kingdom comes on this earth today." 12/21/2015

Guthrie, Nancy - Suffering - Yancey, Philip - The Gift of Pain - http://www.monergismbooks.com/pdfs/bestillmysoul.pdf -
"Dr. Paul Brand, a missionary surgeon...headed the rehabilitation branch of America’s only leprosarium (at that time) Brand’s discovery in the physical realm closely parallels the moral argument for pain offered by C. S. Lewis in The Problem of Pain.
Just as physical pain is an early warning system to the brain, it is a warning system to the soul.
Pain is a megaphone of God which, sometimes murmuring, sometimes shouting, reminds us that some thing is wrong."

Hagin, Kenneth - The Word of Faith magazine  1/2009 - Faith In Action editorial Receiving What Is Yours www.rhema.org - For 99 % of individuals the following would apply. 
That "God always answers our prayers with a 'yes', sometimes with a 'no,' & sometimes with a 'wait a while'...is human reasoning & doesn't line up with what the Bible says. 
John 15:7 says, 'If ye abide in Me & My Words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, & it shall be done unto you.'" 
(What this means, for instance, is that if your church doctrine teaches that suffering is good for you &/or will help you to get into heaven, then such teaching does NOT line up with Jesus' words & will also speed up your demise, just what the enemy ordered. 
God provided Jesus as our means to accomplish the defeat of premature death, disease, & mental illness. 
When we do not aggressively avail ourselves of His work on the cross, then we, not He, allow/encourage/enlist our own suffering.) 

Radio/CD/DVD

http://planet.infowars.com/worldnews/north-korean-tyrant-kim-jong-un-to-execute-33-christians radio 3/6/2014

Snodgrass, Derrick - Heavenly Room of Tears @ 9/23/2021 2-year Anniversary Episode! – Box 2 Radio Network
@ Derrick Snodgrass – Box 2 Radio Network

Seeds of Resiliency movie trailer - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2pH-7yb0vI - 10/18/2012

Selvaraj, Sadhu Sundar @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1T0CmM9YAk 10/23/2020 @ #SadhuSundarSelvaraj #JesusMinistries #AngelTV Sadhu contends that some sins are unto the death of the flesh, but necessarily of the soul & spirit.
Thus NO RX or prayer can/will remedy/reverse that liberty/legal right given to satan. 
Martyrs Army conferences began 2017 after a 30 year incubation - Archives @ Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj - Sermon Index
Selvaraj, Sadhu Sundar @ - 7/30/2019 - According both scripture & medical science, fetuses have both spiritual & physical ears that can both hear + a physical & spiritual mind that can comprehend. @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwA594g7tso -
Session #10 @ Christian Missionary Fellowship International, Maryland (Listen/watch at approx. #40 on dial.) 
We are to minister to fetuses when the moms are 6 months pregnant, says God even to (administering the) Holy Spirit baptism... Additionally, those willing to consecrate themselves to be available martyrs will be the remnant Judeo-Christians who will do the extreme wonders beyond what Christ did, but via indwelling Holy Spirit.  Archives @ www.angeltv.org
Session #11 @ USA Prophetic 2019: How To Prepare for Persecution or https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mov57sgFRjU -

Snodgrass, Derrick 4/25/2022 @ Derrick Snodgrass - Sid Roth – It’s Supernatural! | sidroth.org Broadcast

Richard Wurmbrand - The Voice of the Martyrs - http://www.persecution.net/links/Print.htm 
http://helpforrefugees.com (Michael Wurmbrand, son of deceased Richard Wurmbrand)

Torrefuerte, Ana Mercedes 
@ http://web.me.com/arayini/PROPHETIC_NEWS_/Highlights/Entries/2009/8/7_Government_Kingdom_Conference.html
"Ana (Ferrell) www.voiceofthelight.com proclaimed word calling to her people a holy convocation in that place, the sounds of the trumpets in heavens were heard & for the new generation to move forward in their own under-standing & to bring themselves in tune into what God is doing in the present.  The Spirit of God spoke to His church through His prophetic voice exclaiming (asking) to what point would we let Him work in our lives? 
To what point would we allow Him to transform us?
How far into the impossible would we go for Him? How far are we willing to follow Him & not man?
'Enter into the secret place,' said the Lord '& render your life to me, search for the truth.'
I emphasize that when the prophets were speaking, it was because they could hear the wounds of the Bleeding Father."

Wilkerson, David  7/31/2006  Forgive Me, Lord, for Making You Weep from Pulpit Series - www.worldchallenge.org -
Israel, the Jews, & His inner circle for whom Jesus came, failed to trust fully in Him as Messiah until after Holy Spirit fell as baptizer. 
Their ongoing failure to trust/believe/comprehend what the God's Holy Spirit was doing did wound him often.

Wommack, Andrew - 8/7/2018 - http://www.awmi.net/download-file.php?ownloads/tv/2018/08aug/awm_tv20180807.wmv -
Paul's thorn can be referenced in the Old Testament scripture, as people/persecution.  

Commentary:

BEWARE of Watchman Nee's - The Latent Power of the Soul - where Nee attributes paranormal exploits (entirely) to the subconscious mind rather than to (the possibility of the meddling of) evil spirits.  
However, he does not dismiss that demonic activity/influence/interference does or can exist. 
BEWARE of the religious philosophy that things such as disease & trouble are to be endured (rather than contested/resisted) since Christ also suffered.  Much of what we suffer is the consequence of our wrong choices or from inherited curses. 
Christ's suffering was prophesied in the Old Testament to fulfill God's promise to rescue man. 
There is a huge divide between suffering/ persecution for believing in Jesus Christ & non religious suffering... 
Sometimes pastors/mentors fail to remember & to remind us that most saints had to cross at least 1 bridge of suffering to get to their healing/deliverance/miracle/destiny.  Even though Jesus was born again, baptized in the Holy Spirit, operating in all the gifts & fruit of the Holy Spirit, He had to be rejected, ridiculed, tormented, shamed, & tortured unto death, prior to receiving His prize/inheritance/glory/ reward/trump card. 
The 12 apostles likewise could operate in all the gifts & fruit of the Holy Spirit, even raise the dead, yet they too were martyrs.  God allowed Job to be tested through suffering before receiving double for his trouble. 
Jews in every generation have been the lightening rod/scapegoat for many of the world's problems. 
It seems that they in particular have had to bear a double cup of suffering on account of Jesus Christ, the Messiah & God's son.  So do NOT be discouraged nor dismayed when suffering lands on your doorstep. 
It might be only a fire alarm drill, saying, "This is only a test."  God, not Satan, always has the last laugh.

                                                                                    Empathy

Turner, Ann - Dear America - The Girl Who Chased Away Sorrow - The Diary of Sarah Nita, a Navajo (Dine) Girl, New Mexico, 1864 - book - "During the Long Walk...'to Fort Summer'...Hweeldi, a place of suffering in the Starving Time...the Day of Burning, for when the soldiers came...in the Time of the parting of the Seasons...October... 1864."  "I hear a wounded animal sound that makes me turn around to see where it is coming from. 
It isn't Kaibah, it isn't the dog.  It is me...Some other girl is doing these things, not I. 
Some other person is thinking about food, about shelter & sleeping. 
The girl (real person) that is Sarah Nita is hiding deep inside, saying over & over to herself, 'Where is my mother? 
Where is Father?  Are you alive?'"

                                                                                 Commentary

What is 1 reason why the physical body of Christ suffered such affliction before & on the cross?  Jesus is the body/flesh of God's Holy Spirit...We too (the church in each generation) are the a containers/body/temple/flesh of God's Spirit on the earth. 
Our tortures (such as the holocaust/genocide) are borne/experienced (on the cross) & redeemed (at His resurrection) by God (Who is Trinity - Father/Son/Holy Spirit), when we operate as His body/church/temple/home in the name of Yeshua/messiah. 
If invisible God is Spirit & we (Messianic Christians) are His flesh, then of course He also suffers, for the 2 have become 1 in Him on the earth.  (Remember, in heaven there is NO time, as science today defines it.)

Genocides/Holocausts

Evans, Mike - https://www.ynetnews.com/articles/0,7340,L-4985893,00.html - autobiography regarding anti- Semitism -
“My mother was Jewish. She came from an orthodox family, whose parents arrived from Eastern Europe & Belarus,” he says. “Her grandfather was Rabbi Michael Katzenelson. She herself didn’t like Christians. 
When I was 4 she told me Christians had killed Jews, that Jesus is dead & there’s no need to resurrect him, & that the pope & Hitler too were Christians. But she married my father, who was a Christian, & had 7 children with him.
“My father came from the conservative south. He raised us as Christians. He used to go to church, but he was a hypocrite too.
On Friday evenings he would get drunk, & when he’d come home, he would beat up my mother, calling her a Jewish whore, & say I was not his son but rather a bastard, an illegitimate Jewish offspring. 
He therefore never called me ‘son,’ he never loved or hugged me. Instead he abused me.” 
The young Mike feared for his life.
“My goal in life was to reach age 20, since I was sure my father was going to kill me before that.
When I was 11, he attempted to kill me for trying to defend my mother. That was the only time.
I had never defended her while he was beating her up. But that time I said ‘Stop it.’ He chased me, choked me. 
When I looked in his eyes, I knew I was going to die, that I was never going to be 20.
I knew I wasn’t going to make it through the night. I threw up on myself & fainted. 
When I opened my eyes a few hours later, I was angry I was still alive.
"I remember that anger. I prayed angrily in the dark: God, why was I born?  It didn’t make any sense.
I was a small, broken child. The moment I had said that, I (then) realized I was born to defend the Jewish people.
That night I arrived at that realization,” (the purpose/destiny for which God created him.)   

Rinser, Luise - Woman's Prison Journal - Germany 1944 - Schoken Books/Random House publisher -
Risner "was neither Jewish nor communist - was denounced by a 'friend', arrested for high treason,
and sent to the women's prison at Traunstein in Bavaria." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luise_Rinser
Christian novel by Risner ? - http://www.southerncrossreview.org/36/miryam3.htm

Martyrs

https://www.britannica.com/biography/Saint-Polycarp + https://www.newworldencyclopedia.org/entry/Saint_Polycarp +
https://www.oca.org/saints/lives/2019/02/23/100589-hieromartyr-polycarp-bishop-of-smyrna Turkey +
Russian Orthodox @ https://www.oca.org/history-archives
Polycarp full movie @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=njp3WNVQ9O4 -

Humility

The Power of Humility by R. T. Kendall - Read chapter 1 here .

Ministries/Pastors in Crisis

Israel's Messianic Jews - http://maoz.convio.net/site/PageServer?pagename=maoz_projects_persecution

Voice of the Martyrs - USA testimonies - http://vommeetings.com/

Shaw, Gwen - Suffering Helps Us To Know the Father More Intimately -
“Jesus learned to know the Father through His suffering while He was a man on earth.
It wasn’t in Heaven, where everything was peaceful & beautiful & without pain, but rather, it was while He was on earth, when He suffered at the hands of man, that He learned to know Him in a way He had never known Him in the eternity of the past.  (Gwen contends she too met God before she was born)...
It is only through suffering that we are able to be drawn very close to God.”
(April, 1999, pg. 4) @ http://www.eth-s.com/ End Time Handmaidens & Servants - Cult
10/2009 editorial (Which author is deceived?)
(COMMENTARY - Yes, suffering can be a mentoring/teaching/redeeming gift/sacrament; however what Jesus suffered was NOT due to His own inadequacy/incompleteness/ imperfection/immaturity/insufficiency.  
Gwen's revelation is likely a demonic delusion, NOT God's reality.  A closer truth could be the following hypothesis: 
Jesus is the visible manifestation/ physical body of the Trinity.  The Holy Spirit is the invisible spirit of the Trinity. 
Father God is the invisible heart/soul/mind of the Trinity. 
Yet the 3 share all parts equally in the same way a human would share his own aliveness. 
Doctrines of demons will remove the holiness & awe of the Trinity. 
We all are candidates of deception.  Guardian angels, we enlist & appreciate your daily protection from spiritual, psychiatric & physical assaults.  Yes, suffering does fulfill both legal & spiritual laws, but God's own fulfillment of them on our behalf, has NO thing to do with the Yeshua, the 3rd part of the Trinity. 
The Trinity in NO way was/is insufficient; rather, it is we who are/were insufficient, until He made us sufficient, in Him, never of/by ourselves.  Without Him we are NO thing.)

The Trinity
Often Allows or Uses Evil for Good
so that evil/curses will boomerang & be recycled for blessings. 

Walsh, Sheila 1/16/2019 https://lifetoday.org/video/scars-of-victory-part-1/# -
A testimony of recovery after hospitalization.

The Trinity's or Heaven's Perspective

COMMENTARY: - It may be that because heavenly time encompases earthly time (yesterday + today + tomorrow) that Father God as a parent of each human (spirit + soul + body), is tearful (yesterday + today + tomorrow) over each premature death & especially over each person who elects to reject the salvation provided by His Son Jesus Christ.
Since the (human) spirits living inside of Him come to earth to fulfill a predetermined destiny in/for/with Him, many return to Him at the termination of their "vacation" on earth, but others descend into Hell, permanently separated from their spiritual family of origin. 
This leaves a permanant vacancy/hole (like Swiss cheese) in Papa God's heart. 
As humans, we can begin to comprehend/emphathize with Father God in His sorrow.  Papa, we repent for both ourselves & Your other offspring, who are often so self absorbed that we rarely, if ever, comprehend Your holy agony & provision for each of us individually, in each generation.  With the help of Your Holy Spirit & holy angels, may we increasingly comfort You & help reduce this holocaust to our spiritual siblings & Your offspring. 
This we pray in the name, blood & resurrection power of Your Son Jesus the Christ, our Messiah.

Satan is often the evil spirit inciting denial & betrayal.

luke/2-35.htm  The Prophecy of Simeon -
34Then (rabbi) Simeon blessed them & said to His (Yeshua's) mother Mary:
“Behold, this Child is appointed to cause the rise & fall of many in Israel, & to be a sign that will be spoken against,
35so that the thoughts of many hearts will be revealed —” and a sword will pierce your soul as well.
36There was also a prophetess named Anna.
john/19-34.htm - Jesus' Side is Pierced -
33But when they came to Jesus & saw that He was already dead, they did not break His legs.
34Instead, one of the soldiers pierced His side with a spear, and immediately blood and water flowed out.
35The one who saw it has testified to this, & his testimony is true.
He knows that he is telling the truth, so that you also may believe.…
matthew/13-57.htm - The Rejection at Nazareth -
56Aren’t all His sisters with us as well? Where then did this man get all these things?”
57they took offense at Him.
But Jesus said to them, “Only in his hometown and in his own household” is a prophet without honor.
58He did not do many miracles there, because of their unbelief.
matthew/16-23.htm - Christ's Passion Foretold -
22Peter took Him aside & began to rebuke Him, “Far be it from You, Lord.  This shall never happen to You.”
23But Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind Me, Satan. You are a stumbling block to Me.
For you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men.”
24Then Jesus told His disciples, “If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself & take up his cross and follow Me.
/john/13-22.htm - Jesus Predicts His Betrayal -
21After Jesus had said this, He became troubled in spirit & testified, “Truly, truly, I tell you, 1 of you will betray Me.”
26Jesus answered, “It is the one to whom I give this piece of bread after I have dipped it.”
Then He dipped the piece of bread & gave it to Judas son of Simon Iscariot.
27After Judas took the piece of bread, Satan entered into him.
Then Jesus said to Judas, “What you are about to do, do quickly.”
luke/22-3.htm -
3Then Satan entered Judas Iscariot, who was one of the Twelve disciples.
4Judas went to discuss with the chief priests & temple officers how he might betray Jesus to them.
genesis/3-15.htm KJV - 14The LORD God said to the serpent, "Because you have
done this, Cursed are you more than all cattle, & more than every beast of the field.
On your belly you will go, & dust you will eat all the days of your life;
15a.I will put enmity Between you and the woman, And between your seed and her seed;
Young's Literal Translation
15b.He doth bruise thee: the head & thou dost bruise him: the heel.'
Douay-Rheims Bible - 15b.She shall crush thy head, & thou shalt lie in wait for her heel.
JPS Tanakh 1917 15b. They (man) shall bruise (decapitate) thy head, & thou shalt bruise their heel' (& thus become under our/man's feet/authority). (or)
JPS Tanakh 1917 15b. They (snakes/demons) shall bruise thy head (mind), & thou shalt bruise (nip at) their heel' (seed & thus trigger awareness/deliverance).
Revelation 12:17 - The dragon was enraged at the woman, & went to make war with the rest of her children, who keep the commandments of God & hold to the testimony of Jesus.
revelation/20-2.htm - Satan Bound -
1Then I saw an angel coming down from heaven with the key to the Abyss, holding in his hand a great chain.
2He seized the dragon, the ancient serpent who is the devil and Satan, and bound him for a thousand years.
3He threw him into the Abyss, shut it, & sealed it over him, so that he could not deceive the nations until the 1,000 years were complete. After that, he must be released for a brief period of time.
1_peter/4-12.htm -
12Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial that has come upon you, as though something strange were happening to you.
13Rejoice that you share in the sufferings of Christ, that you may be overjoyed at the revelation of His glory.

Thorns

Thankful for the Thorns - http://www.youdevotion.com/streams/april/8 2020 -

Tears of Regret

Wommack, Andrew - 12/16/2019 - You've Already Got It @ https://www.awmi.net/video/this-weeks-tv/?id=gSxwRmgP @ https://www.awmi.net/ - The majority of people who arrive in heaven will bemoan their failure to notice &/or utilize the spiritual power indwelling them on earth. 
(Another group will bemoan their failure to receive the Holy Spirit baptism.)